-=[顺]=- Shun no Oni

A force has start to form and brewing like a storm, seem it will crush my usual cup of peace. But I am a newer person than before, I can give up. So we see how this force will come.

Lessons learn. First lesson, was a lesson of shadowed area. I knew that was a shadowed area. Chaos and Evil are often filling up the air in the area. But I choose to join an entourage to venture it again. Intoxication in control now, guess not much of problem.
What did madden me was the outrage from a mere being trying to taunt me, I held my mind, do what I should do, keep things in peace and harmony, But it caused much psychological damage to me, had build up such rage that it even tormented me in my slumber the following nights.
Then to let go, to hold no grudge against another, I soon dropped this anger, I felt peace again, luckily.

Another lesson was alliance. I was tested by a word call equation. I would call it God but I refused to believe in those, hence I decide to name it Equation.

I was given options, I choose 1 path, I will take the effect and consequences. After this path was chosen, unexpectedly it affect another option. I have no choice but to accept that consequences, then Equation came in. Another option was hindered.
I do not blamed the different entourages, I only blamed myself that I had not chosen or analyzed the situation probably. In the end, now I feel I will rethink of choice of actions before acting on it.

Last lesson was a lesson on trust, seem now I cannot trust anyone but family. Not even friends now. Always have a feeling friends are using each other. Sometime I ignored the fact I was being used, hoping they themselves could learn something and work it out a perfect solution, however, that was not the usual case. I don’t blame them, as we are all not perfect. Then when after all these happen, a recent encounter with another friend who yet seem caring enough to ask about me, I was happy with that conversation. Even thou it was short, a hi and bye with some questions, seem to enlighten the darkness that filled within me. Maybe, I should give other chances and myself a chance of redemption. I do not need to go extreme with myself.

IELTS score i got a 6.5, better than what I expected, almost thought I would failed it. However, as expected I knew my written had some problem.

Went to update with SIM too, hear the reply should come by September.

Hope good news in September then.

Found this picture, think this girl quite attitude and edge, wonder if I can meet someone like her.